Why did god Make things like this??!!!

Well Anthony has been on my mind hard these last couple of weeks!! I try and help Karie as much as I can!!! Here is a Picture Of the Ornamet I got her for Anthony!! I love it it is very pretty!! I promised Anthony that I would do that for every christmas!! Imiss him so much and can not wait till I see his face, I dont want to see karie so sad all the Time!! Every time I hold or see a baby or a toddler it makes me think "WHY COULDNT HE DO THIS"?? "Why them" Then I think God has a plan for everyone things happen for a reason!!
Everytime I hold a baby I think of Anthony It feels like him EVERYTHING!! I miss him so much and Love him more than ever!!!
I remeber first holding him!!! EVERYTHING was perfect he had 10 fingers all perfect and there 10 Buatiful toes that walked all over our hearts Perfect everything!!
I remeber Karie was trying to change Anthony's Diaper lol it took like 3 of us!! Lol it was so funny and he was just smilling the Whole time!! His smiles was the Best in theWorld it is like god Took all the Buatiful and most peace full and loving places and things and wrapped up in the most perfect Body and handed him to Karie and Tony!! Iam so happy I went to that Hospital I wasnt there when He was first born and I Was Crying It felt Like I was being Drugg to the Hospital Like I neededto be there!! When I came in the 1st time I saw everyone in there! Tony was holding Anthony and I walked over to him and He said " Here Buddy do you want to go see Amber" And when he handed him to me I was in love My heart was there it was the Hardest thing to see some one so loved and so buatiful to have to leave to soon!! I know god needed him But it isnt fair!! It isnt fair for anyone to have to go through this!! Well that is all I have to write about!!
Thank You for reading:)
--Amber

RIP Anthony Loren Guinn Jr.
Please take care of him god!!