Saturday, September 19, 2009

Angel of God!!!

Here is a Video For everyone to Enjoy Click the link and it will take you!! :)


God knows How much we miss That smile!! We miss him soo Much and Cant wait till we see him again I wish things didnt happen this way!! What would he look like today?? SOme one tell his mother that why her why his Father WHY HIM??? Karie has asked this to me over and over the Only thing I can tell her is God has a Plan atleast we got to spend 7hours and 53mins together!! GOD THANK YOU FOR THAT!! But why not longer why couldnt he die because he was old and WHY COULDNT HE LIVE HIS LIFE!!??? I want to know I am tired of telling his mommy that Only God has a plan for them!! GOD SEND THEM A SIGN SHOWING THEM!! They love him so much (his mommy and daddy) They wish they could hold him EVERYDAY!!! People NEVER take things for Granted!!! Why did a Baby SOO wanted by everyone Have to die?? But other people can have babies and rubb it in our face and have an abortion!!! THIS IS BULLSHIT!!! I cant stand it anymore!!!! Anthony was wanted sooo bad by EVERYONE espically his mommy and daddyyy!! Why him GOD PLEASE SEND KARIE AND TONY A SIGN TO SHOW THEM EVERYTHING WILL BE OK!!! They miss their son with ALL OF THEIIIRRR HEEARTT!!!!

Only question I have for you god is WHHY!???
He was soo perfect buatiful he was heaven and Peace!!

Anthony remember ONE thing your mommy and dadddyy loves you sooo much it kills both of them not having you here with them!! I wish god woould go back and give you back to mommy and daddy!!! Yall were PERFECT!! PPPEEERRRFFFEEECCCCTTTT!!! Everything you r mommy couldnt let go of you!! She tried soo hard not to cryy but when you left it was ssoooo hard for her!! Please Anthony keep mommy and daddy safe!! Bless your Brother/SISTERS (Aunt amber wants your mommy and daddy to have a Girl theyhave a Buatiful boy now a Girl) When they do I will be there with SOO MANY PICTURES and a video to show him/her just how wonderful you were and how god praised mommy and daddy with every minute with him I swear I am going to be there to show her/him You he/she will grow up KNOWING YOU!!! And you are always and forever your mommy and daddy's Baby boy!! And your Brother/Sister will know you as their Brother!!
Things get ruff and I cant ever Cry I try to stay strong and it Feels like you wont let me!! Please angel Give mommy and daddy your Love and feeling EVERYDAY!! They need you more than ANYONE will ever think!!!!

**THIS IS MY FAVORITE PICTURE OF ANTHONY!!! He looks like his daddy**

God Bless you angel and I love and Miss you so much youcouldnt imagine!!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

He is missed every second!!! :(

I wish he was still withyou because you truelly are a Good mother Karie when he was born God I could see how scarred you were to loose him and It broke My heart to see that preciouse Baby of yours and tony Join Jesus And leave you and his daddy with a Sore and hurting heart!! I know that you miss him and things just getting harder not only missing anthony But with life you and Tony Deserve SO much and Anthony he may be with jesus and when he was here he had anencephally But girl he was so Pretty!!! I miss him so much and it hurts me to know that you feel a BILLION times worse and to see you being so hurt and sad you just wanting to be a Mommy to him and Then found out that he would Pass away and You havementioned it to me So manyy times that it Kills you and tears you and his daddy apart becuase you either wont be able to see him grow up!! I know It is a hard thing I know itis But still you and tony Step up to the Rockyy Road and you had anthony And not one drop of love changed it only Gotten Strong!! Tony if you are readdingg this 2 Then I am sorry, I know things are getting so hard for you to because of the Death of your Son and your Father!! There is really nothing I can say to either one of you to make you feel no hurt Because I cant you lost your Son and you and Karie Deserve SOOO much from life!! I know anthony meant the World to both of you and he is your heart and you will never forget him!!! There is nothing better than a Familyyy with so much love that you can see it when you see them and when I looked at both of you the Day anthony was born Neither of you could keep your Eyes off of him He was so buatiful and Preciouse I wich god would have gaven you more time with your Preciouse son But God has a Plan for all 3 of you and things will work it self out!! It just takes time and patience!!! I know karie you say why me!! Why my Anthony, My son, Why me and tony!! But girl we wont ever know that till we meet god and Anthony!! I pray EVERY NIGHT for your Family that god Blesses you 3 in the Best of way and I cant wait till Baby #2 Comes You want A boy But I think a GIRL would be perfect!! :)
Your heart feels uncomplete without anthony and it is hard but things will get better!!!
I love all 3 of you and want soooo much for you you deserve the Best Life can give and it seems others dont see that and just went back to their old ways!! But anthony has changed my Life SOO mush he tought me to not take life for Granted and to cherish Everything you have and LOVE the people in it and the People you have lost!!!

ME :)
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Thursday, August 20, 2009


To all the People out there talking about Babies with Anencephaly How there families are Crazy for keeping the Baby Alive!!!">READ THIS AND IT WILL EXPLAIN EVERYTHING!!

Ok this Website is all about Baby Faith and It just makes me sick I cant stand it!!! This just shows How Heartless people can be and how UNeducated!!!
When I held Anthonyy he was a Normal Babyy He done everything perfect 10 fingers 10 toes a cute button nose and Cheeks That his Mommy Karie Kissed on the whole time he was with her!!
These people dont know how it feels to have a baby and then Told that your Baby will die before, During, Or after Birth. Mothers Grieve For there babies,, And to have an Abortion is OUT OF THE QUESTION!!
Why would you have an abortion to where you and the doctors that Perform it Take the Babies Life?? Keep the Baby and let the Baby bring you love and show you had to love some one and show you that EVERY baby that has lived or went home with Jesus Makes an imprint on our World even though if they only touch their Families more,, But Why sit there and let doctors take your Baby From YOUR body Kill the Baby which is basically Murder?? Answer me that??
The baby is Put here by God and Let god be the one that takes This angel to heaven Let GOD do it I am 100% That God is Capable of doing this I mean look what he has already Created!!!

Friday, July 31, 2009

God Is Coming!! Are you Ready For Your Reward Yet??

I have watched this Video Over and Over and I have Cried Many Of Times!!

This is the Truth Showing That god Does have a Purpose for everything to happen!! And that he is coming to get us soon and show us home and show us that there is a life with no pain and if you beileve in him and trust in his names he will give you a great reward at the end of your journey!!

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Why did god Make things like this??!!!

Well Anthony has been on my mind hard these last couple of weeks!! I try and help Karie as much as I can!!! Here is a Picture Of the Ornamet I got her for Anthony!! I love it it is very pretty!! I promised Anthony that I would do that for every christmas!! Imiss him so much and can not wait till I see his face, I dont want to see karie so sad all the Time!! Every time I hold or see a baby or a toddler it makes me think "WHY COULDNT HE DO THIS"?? "Why them" Then I think God has a plan for everyone things happen for a reason!!
Everytime I hold a baby I think of Anthony It feels like him EVERYTHING!! I miss him so much and Love him more than ever!!!
I remeber first holding him!!! EVERYTHING was perfect he had 10 fingers all perfect and there 10 Buatiful toes that walked all over our hearts Perfect everything!!
I remeber Karie was trying to change Anthony's Diaper lol it took like 3 of us!! Lol it was so funny and he was just smilling the Whole time!! His smiles was the Best in theWorld it is like god Took all the Buatiful and most peace full and loving places and things and wrapped up in the most perfect Body and handed him to Karie and Tony!! Iam so happy I went to that Hospital I wasnt there when He was first born and I Was Crying It felt Like I was being Drugg to the Hospital Like I neededto be there!! When I came in the 1st time I saw everyone in there! Tony was holding Anthony and I walked over to him and He said " Here Buddy do you want to go see Amber" And when he handed him to me I was in love My heart was there it was the Hardest thing to see some one so loved and so buatiful to have to leave to soon!! I know god needed him But it isnt fair!! It isnt fair for anyone to have to go through this!! Well that is all I have to write about!!
Thank You for reading:)

RIP Anthony Loren Guinn Jr.
Please take care of him god!!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Anthony You were an Angel all along!!

Anthony You are an Angel!! I remember when I walke into the room where you were NewBorn and Daddy was holding you!! THe look on your daddies face he couldnt keep his Eyes off of you even when other people were holding you!! I know your mommy and daddy miss you so much when I saw you in a picture That Crystal showed me you looked like you were going to be really heavy but when daddy handed you to me you felt like a cloud!! You were a perfect Angel wonderful little boy, a miracle to your mommy and daddy!! Everything about you was perfect your Fingers were smile warm and soft your cheeks were red and kissable!! Your mommy held you like she was never going to let you go!! When You passed away I just couldnt bare to be there!! I left immediantly!! I held you in my arms and when you passed away you deff. took your mommy and daddies heart with you and they dont want you to return it!! You were their first!! I cant wait till they have another Baby, THey make such pretty Babies!! Anthony watch after mommy and daddy and the babies they have in the Future, Keep everyone Safe and watch after them but mainly mom and dad!!

Love always,

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Cheerish what you have andLove for life

Hi Everyone Just wanted to update and let everyone know that everything is doing good!!
My huby and me have been Wonderful we are actually TTC this will be his first but My second!!!
When I was 15 a whole bunch of stuff happened with me and an Older man I was stress and lost the Baby at 5weeks!! So I will be very excited to have another!!

I bought Karie and Big Tony a christmas ornament for Anthony's first christmas!! They are doing so good!! I deffanintally cant wait till she has another one!! lol... I made this cute Picture on here for Karie But hers says My Son!! I also went to his grave the other day and took pictures of His Grave his headstone still isnt up But Karie said she will be putting it up Asap!!
Well on the other Hand we just found out My best friend jennie is pregnant.. AGAIN it is her 4th she is excited but of course like everymother scarred!! I am also scarred because meeting Anthony made me realize that you have to cheerish life in its Best and worst times and needless to say that When Karie and Big Tony had Anthony that was the Best part of life them are times that need to be taken and told all around the World!! But Jennie will be fine!!

Uhhh!! Life is jsut unexplainable now!! So much has happened this last year that I cant even describe!!! Anyway I just wanted to do a Quick update on everything!!

Thank You for reading!!!
♥ Amber ♥
Cheerish what you have and live for what you lost..

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

My life that is still being writen!!!

Ok well my name is Amber Douglas I am 17 years old!!!
I married the love of my life on July 8th 2008.
His name is Charles Douglas.
We are currently Located in Florida, But expecting to move to Idaho around november of 09..
My husband is currently in The United States Navy and I am proud of him..
He is getting out this October, We are sooo Happy for that.
I have 2 buatiful red nose pit puppies that are like my children and I also have 2 sugar Gliders that I love to death.
Me and the Hubby has had ruff times in our relationship But we are standing strong and alot of people hate that we are together but they cant pry us apart this is love and will stay like that..
We are living on our own and doing really good..
I meet him when I was 15 around september we were officially dating December 3rd of 07!!
We have been stabed in the Back many of times just helping people out..
♥ The New Best day of my life was MAY 1ST My Godson was born But 7hours later he passed away!!!
I love him with all my heart he was to perfect for our world so God called him up to heaven and had him help and now every time I feel the wind blow I know Lil Tony is helping blow that wind and it is just him blowing us kisses!!! He did have complicantions he was born with Anencephaly and That caused him to leave our world.. I love him soo much and think about him everyhour and every minute.. But the best people in my life are My husband, Lil Tony, Karie, Big Tony, and God..

I treasured the time God gave me to spend with lil tony I am glad I meet you, You filled my heart with love my mind with memories, My thoughts with Prayers, My soul with peace and my spirit with Freedom.. I love you I always dreamed of meeting a angel but when I meet you I knew you were all of our angels a buatiful gift.. I stood by mommy and daddy and tried to keep them Strong..

But even though he passed it feels like when I want to cry my heart just feels warma nd I remember his smiles he gave us and I remember just the Good memories,, I try not to cry so I wont make you cry but it is def. hard lil tony we miss you so much and dont think it is fair..

But as everyone can tell my world crashed on that day and I can feel lil Tony with me every where.. He keeps me strong and I love him soo much.. I just hope god had a plan for all of us Def. Karie and Big Tony..

But anyway that is my life at this momentt... Me and my mom dont get along she uses me so bad I cant stand it and it took me till now to see that she wasnt their to comfort me when lil tony died only my hubby which was fine but I needed that mother love then, And me and my dad get along but dont really have a Father Daughter relationship.. But if there is anything else jsut ask I have a bunch of stuff to write about lil tony and his time with us!!!

Thanks for reading
Amber Douglas!!!